pak MaiL..ermm..

2nd time secretly crush someone who i think it's impossible to be with him...

this time..he's accidentally close with me...i think we trust each other on keeping a secret...

but, like i said last month in my heart, i HATE to be man's best friend...it's enough for that moment, i said that because it's time for me to move on and find my love one...i need him to be with me..

but why him!?..and from his story i still believe we can't be together even though i always pray that i'm mistake about it...why i'm easily had a crush with a guy??..i need to know him..and sometimes i need him to know how i feel so that IF he wants to run away, he may run...i try to hide this feeling but somehow, it already shown up...i didn't ask this thing happen...why he didn't try to stop this?!..why he makes me feel special every time i met him?..i never had a conversation for 7 hours in the whole night!!!!..but he did it!!!!..but what happens if we can't be together??..is there any conversation between us?!?!..is hard for me if that happens!!..anyway, when i wrote this blog..he send me a good night's text...SEE!!.how can i handle it?..hope there will be a sunshine between us...i'll try my best and don't want to disappointed anymore...

what ever he is...i like the way he are!!!..as long as he is ... ....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!