a bend in the road

what a sweet and lovely novel....

i bought it 7 years ago but just finish it last week...

hahaha...i don't remember about that novel actually until i unpacked my stuff....

i thought about a walk to remember also....

when i read it, i imagined everything...

the characters, the environment, the situation and also the feelings....

i think i want to collect all nicholas sparks novels...

since it's quite good and i love 'em so much....

i need it right now...

i need to feel the love again....

hmm...

i'm still alone and getting sad if i think about everything....

why this thing happen to me?!...

i'm obsessed with the novels..

and sometimes i wish it happen to me..

but it's impossible...

i should get some sleep...

i shoule rest my mind...

maybe when i wake up everything could change....

hopefully...

fasting...

happy fasting to all muslims...
ramadhan al-mubarak datang lagi...
makin lama..makin rindu pulak kat sumer perkara...
teringat kenangan masa zaman muda2...
serious-ly...tak tipu..
rase macam dah lama tinggalkan zaman budak2...
padahal aku baru 19 la kot...

at last aku berani hantar sms kat ayah terry...
rindu giler...tak balas pon takpe janji aku hantar...
tapi..balas gak ayah dier...
sangat terharu...siap jemput rumah lagi raya nie...
ayat die macam nie la...
"terima kasih pak cik dan mak pun ucapkan selamat menyambut ramadhan dan sihat di samping keluarga selalulah datang ke rumah d hari raya nanti..assalamualaikum"...
so touching and lovely...
i miss him badly man...
tak pernah aku lost contact dengan dier camnie lama nya...

alahai...aku selalu doa untuk dia...
dengan harapan dia aman kat sane...
hmm...
walau macam mane pon aku hadapi masalah...
arwah tetap aku pikir kan sebab die tempat aku luahkan masalah...

biarla...aku pon dah janji nak move on kan...
aku try...terry, i'll try my best for you...
ape2 pon sempena bulan ramadhan al-mubarak nie...
aku harapkan sesuatu yang indah bakal menjelma...
aminnn....
dengan keizinan ALLAH....

k r..
nak sahur esk...

backstabber..

holiday..holiday..holiday...
this week i'll be home for mid-sem break...
really excited sebab that's the only way i can watch football...
hahaha...
lagipon kan dah nak puasa...
boleh la makan nenek punya ayam goreng sampai kenyang....

i'm free from any sickness this week...
at least so far la kan...
tapi assignment memang menimbun and kene lak submit minggu nie...
memang terbaik....

i thought i tak nak bagi tahu sesiapa pasal blog nie...
tapi tak pe la...lama2 t tahu gak kan...
huuu....

okay...
aku kene plan ape yang aku nak buat cuti nie...
takkan nak baby-sit lagi...
kene buat something wat exotic...
like shopping, bowling, and shooting...
huhu...shooting ape2 pon lah kan....
kene or erti kate lain...WAJIB...

aku sebenar nya takde nak luahkan so far...
sebab tengah online kat library dengan nyah nie...
tuh la yang saje je nak post kan...
sekarang aku ngah obses bace nicholas sparks "bend in the road"...
sangat2 best...tunggu dah habis baca nanti okay...

k r..
chow..

you...

...today it's all about you...

special kenduri for you...16/0gos/2009...

yes..muhammad zhafri bin shahrir a.k.a terry...

today, i will remember you and it's just not today....forever...

they will pray for you...

because it's almost three months you left us...

it's okay...ALLAH loves you more than we do...

you'll always be HIS angel right!?!...

your mom didn't know about this...

i guess it'll be our secret okay!?...

i will keep my promise to come to your house this year hari raya okay!?...

and of course i'll visit you dear....

i miss you badly....

you never missed to come to my house if there any kenduri...

but i guess, this year will never be the same again...

you are not here anymore...

besides, this kenduri special because it's for you....

wish you know and you were here....

almost 100 days right terry!?...

i always keep the memory that we shared....

i always love you..you know that right...

sometimes i wish that i can kiss you and touch your face for the last time...

and i'm so sorry i didn't invite our friends to come here...

i really hope that ayuni n aida could make it here...

but they can't...

it's okay right!?!?...

next year i'll make sure they come as usual ok?!..

i'm here....

wish you all da bless....

hope we can meet one day....

there's a lot things we need to share....

miss everything about you....

p/s: i love you...

dengue..

last thursday, 13th august 2009..
what a day...i suddenly sick and my temperature is 39.2 degree celcius?!!?...
i was like...OMG!!.i'm so dead today....
dah la aku ade tournament bowling that day...
saje je nak bagi aku out dari competition kan!?!?!....

mama and abah fetch me dat night jugak...
coz i totally out from myself....
but guess what!?!?...
da next day i'm okay!!!!!....

what happen to me lah?!?!?!...
i still remember a week before arwah passed away...
i fall sick like this....
highly fever and body-ache....

this is second time it happens to me....
i hate it so much la....
i have my own jobs...
i have my assignment to submit...
i have game to compete...
WTF la wehh....

i'm pissed off okay!?!?!?....
how dangerous malaysia nowadays!!!?!?..

k r
chow!!

DUTY

alahai...
so pathetic la this week...
i don't have any time to rest....
my schedule so pack!!...
nak makan pon kene rush tau...

first, i'm the president of media club...
and tomorrow i've to submit my first bulletin...
i'm was like...OMG!!!...
i don't think about that bulletin....

second, my roomate and one of my 'bestfriend' just broke up with their partner...
they like lost their world and always need someone to talk to...
and guess what again...it's gonna be ME..of course....
i'm a good listener but then, what about me!?..
that's the reason why i'm still single and still searching....

third, this sonntag!!...
ade kenduri doa selamat kat umah gombak....
of course i would be love to go home and 'help'....
but then, nak balik malacca would be a problem...
how am i supposed to go back in the night?!?!..
mama?!..abah?!?!...
of course dorang penat kan...

fourth, homework!!!...
okay..thanks madam normala and madam asnida....
lot of homework...
cool...semua kene submit on time....
assignment lagi..
what a cool college's life!!!!....
tak sabar nak kahwin!!!..hahaha...sssshhhh....

fifth, missing someone!!!...
i don't know why...these two days, i was like....
why i miss him badly!?!?...
him is actually...someone that not really exist...
think so la...coz if he really exist...
of course i will right here kan!?!?...

alahai...
banyak nyer kepenatan yang aku alami nie...

k r...
tido!!!

so sLow...

lembab nyerr....
i can't live without my internet's modem...
alhamdulillah....
walaupon slow motion...dapat gak tulis kat blog nie...
sangat2 rindu untuk menaip...hahaha...

neway,
gotah just break up with his gurl...
the situation quite tragic...
but i don't want to disturb people's story...
his gurl cheat on him...
he's kind and smart la kot....
pointer nak 3.5 above...

memang terbaik la...
it's not good for me...
eventhough he's single but he needs time to rehab...
rehab?!?!.heal la kot...
alamak aii...

watever it is...
aku dengan dia dah close...
like a bestfren...
macam sweet pulak....

ape pon...
lets the goosip continue the story k!?...
aku xnak taip panjang2..nanti kata syok sendiri pulak...
huu...exotic la...

k..
chow...

samstag!!..

aiyaa...bapak bosan wehh..
dah mati akal aku nak buat apa kat rumah nie....
asyik online jew...
ntah pape jew...
everyday aku sms ngan si gotah nie...
siap gaduh lagi haa...
aku bukan apa...dengan sape lagi aku nak mesej kalau bukan die...

pape pon dengar cerita nie...
hari rabu and khamis pagi ade game bola...
audi cup 2009...
club yang participate, boca juniors, manchester united, ac milan and of coz FC BAYERN...
mula2 FCB vs ac milan...guess what!??!..bayern menang 4-1 kot...
terbaik la..join final jumpa dengan man utd...
nie ibarat macheda vs LAHM la nie kan...
huahuahua....
final khamis pagi...2.40 a.m...
lahm top eleven...kiko tak pulak...
lawan punya lawan 90 minit..0-0 gak...
last2 penalty shoot-out...
BAYERN menang 7-6 penalty kick-out...
terbaik la...satu hari aku senyum kot...
baru nak jatuh hati kat macheda..tak jadi...
abg lahm lagi power...
hahahaha...

lepas tuh, semalam...
ade mamat giler yang bernama hazim zariff...
kacau hidup aku...kata uncle imran...
tapi dah macam ape dah...
well..aku x kahwin lagi dengan imran kot...
tak payah la kacau aku!!!...
poyo la...

k r..
take a nap jap...
-chow-