trip to riau ;)

it'll be a rest moment for me...
need to go to tanjung pinang, riau, indonesia...
for a community service...
4days 3night...wat a great week for me...
and i really hope that it'll be a safest time to visit....
hopefully nothing happen when we did our program...aminnn...

mail and me take part...at first, i'm not in the mood to join the programme...
dunno y??..really2 damn lazy to pack my bags...hee...
but then, i have too...
can't wait to travel outside Malaysia with my ucuk :)
hehehe...

mail and me..quite okay...1month and a half...
ok la tuh...gaduh baik, gaduh baik...
sometimes im not in the mood to talk about it..
i can't stand if we had a fight...im the one who suffered it alone...
i love him...only if he knows about it...
im sure he did...

my college's life getting better with everyone...
they face the fact that i'm not single and try to move on their life...
hahhaha...hope u'll know what i'm talk about...
it's okay la...we can be friends....kan?..

neway, this week just like a small reunion for me...
we gathered back our classmate in standard 3 in subang...SK seafield...
abu zar, danial, intan, azureen, hakim etc....
miss them so much...everyone's growing up and i can't recognize them at all...
hello!!..what happen to me?!?!...
pressure for me to remember back those memories....
hopefully we can meet each other back and share our memories again...

i'm ready to start a new book soon...
next month would be my birthday!!!!..im 20!!!!..
OMG!!!..getting old and HOT like usual...hahaahha...
let's party!!!!...i want diz year birthday celebration's happening unusual way...
heeee...hope my ucuk will make a surprise for me :)

later on guys!!..
will update after i come back to Malaysia this Sunday....
pray for my safety k??..
luf ya ;)

two is better than one :)

hee..wat a happy ending for me..

feel the love around me..hopefully forever...

we officially declared on 30th January 2010...

between muhamad rashidi bin muhamad zainol and hazliza binti harun...

hee..at first we had so many problems and we try to solve it step by step...

and guess what!?.we did it..everything's back to normal...

i love him...thanks for every moment that we spend together...

thanks for make me happy again...

if i don't try, i won't happy like this...

i know what people think about us...but who's care?!..

as long as it didn't trap into your life...right!?..

whatever it takes..we'll try to be together...

and it's time for miracles...

i know it's time for us...

for how long it takes..we'll try...

ermm..that's all for me..

:)

pak MaiL..ermm..

2nd time secretly crush someone who i think it's impossible to be with him...

this time..he's accidentally close with me...i think we trust each other on keeping a secret...

but, like i said last month in my heart, i HATE to be man's best friend...it's enough for that moment, i said that because it's time for me to move on and find my love one...i need him to be with me..

but why him!?..and from his story i still believe we can't be together even though i always pray that i'm mistake about it...why i'm easily had a crush with a guy??..i need to know him..and sometimes i need him to know how i feel so that IF he wants to run away, he may run...i try to hide this feeling but somehow, it already shown up...i didn't ask this thing happen...why he didn't try to stop this?!..why he makes me feel special every time i met him?..i never had a conversation for 7 hours in the whole night!!!!..but he did it!!!!..but what happens if we can't be together??..is there any conversation between us?!?!..is hard for me if that happens!!..anyway, when i wrote this blog..he send me a good night's text...SEE!!.how can i handle it?..hope there will be a sunshine between us...i'll try my best and don't want to disappointed anymore...

what ever he is...i like the way he are!!!..as long as he is ... ....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tracks of my tears..

just for adam lambert himself...suddenly i love him more than everyone love him!!!..why??..hahaha..it's funny!!!..well, stop talking about lambert...hahaha...well, tomorrow i'll traveling to malacca!!..for a reason actually..i've to attend a camp in kulim, kedah...and guess what!?..i have no friends!!!..and i can't wait it comes to an end!!!..OMG!!.what is happening to me!?!?..i just want to go to genting and spend my time with my coolest friends ever!!..ayuni, aida, miexa and probably emma will join us trip to genting!!!..i just want to hang out and laugh with the girls!!!..enough sitting at home and watch the kids do everything!!!..i'm mess enough do nothing where i can do something fun!!!..if you get a message here, good!..my brain stuck somewhere and need a pump to throw all out the waste!!..fuhhh, it's long enough i keep this in my mind...huu, and hopefully my journey to kedah will rest my mind and i just think it's part of my holiday..don't want to think what will happen in kedah..i'll do nothing just relax...enough about that...next, it's about afiq!..hahaha..things go well with him...it takes a year to get him attention...suddenly this semester break make my holiday worth...he told me that he adore me and kinda had a crush on me!!..it's sweet..sometimes i wish he is my adam lambert but it's possible for him to be GAY!!!..hahaha..jux joke!..i just hope that things go well and i'm happy what i am doing now...noad, of course i miss him..he far far away from me...but he keep calls me when there is a game...good things la..at least he's not silent himself..than i'll be worrried!!...OMG!!..tomorrow is a tired day for me!!!..it's time for miracles and i'll write again for your entertainment!!!..( i knew it)

my adam!

suddenly i'm so obsessed with him!..

yes!.him my adam lambert!!!!..i know his gay..so what!?..he's sing like a real singer...

100% true about his voice...his hot!!..but one question pop out in my head..why his gay!?..

hahaha...hope that people will accept him the way his are...come on la..no body's perfect!!..

aiyaa..whatever happen to him during American Music Awards (AMA 2009) should be forget and move on...he tryin' to be a entertainer...

don't know why suddenly my heart beats fast when i see his cute face!!..with his black hair and nail done not forgetting his eyes!!..i adore him!!..OMGUCCI!!!..hahahha...

top this blog is his pix where every time i see it i can't blink my eyes!!

this is his video clip for his song, for your entertainment!!

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sugar!

long time i didn't spend time write anything here...
quite busy with my new life...
everyday's my new life...
on my own..

i have my new family...family angkat in malacca...
haha..very sweet and lovely...
i'm gonna miss them since i just start my semester break here...
but i'm not alone...i'm with ain and tiya...sharing...

my final exam..so far quite good..and hopefully my GPA will increase...
since i'm one of the student representative council...
waahh..poyo..but it's my responsible...
hope i did the best for next year...

friendship in college so sux!
everythings went wrong and nothing is right...
yeah..yeah...i'm a bitch..so what!?..
at least i'm not hypocrite like you guys...
so pathetic living with those lies...

i can't friend with tiya coz her roomate's jealous with me!
haha..can't believe it..
and i can't be with anybody coz everyone thinks i will change them!..
think twice guys!..
i just try to be myself and i am not hypocrite..that's all..
i'm here in malacca not to search my BFF!
i already have one!..
i came here to study and be the best..
i didn't destroy anyone life before...
so loser..

i'll prove to them that i am right..
it's okay to be gedik like paris hilton as long as you be yourself...
haha...
after i watched pisau cukur movie..it's inspired me 20%...
hahaha...gedik is good..
watsoever!

daa..

green...

last week i had a chance to join program titian kasih KPM AM 2009...

quite exotic and enjoyable weekends to spend for me...

since i'm da one of AJK in dat programme...i grab this oppurtunity to have 'keluarga angkat'...

thanks to en. mohd nor's family....cause choose me, ain and tia as their 'children'...

3 days i spend time with them...their kids are lovely...

of course i'll never forget their smile forever....

akmal and amira...u guys the best....

not forgetting their sisters....(not so sure their name la)...

when the programmes end...i feel so sad and i feel like i dont want to go home....

but i felt something when i look to ayah and ibu's face...i think they hope we'll not forget them...

of course we wont forget them...they are so special...

i plan something to make them happy when they think about us...

i thought to give them a photo album contain our pictures from the day 1 the programme start and the last day we spend there....

for your information...they house not really far from our college actually...

just a few feets from our college....

hahaha...so..it's not impossible to meet them again...

eventhough the programmes also had a sucks part..i just ignore it...serious..

i really hope that our relationship with ayah and ibu...not just end like that...

and hope that this programme will continue and the fun part never end just like that....

so...guys...seems like my final exam around the corner...

i will continue my blogs after my final exam come to end...

i'll miss you like crazy and hope something miracle happen to me...

yeaks!!!

misshh you...