holiday...yeepiee....

just start my holiday last week...hehe..

what to do also dunno coz i can't proceed my license..

my 'L' is expired!!..suddenly...2 years ka??..aiyaa..

haha..my ucuk in taiping, happy working syg!!..

sorry coz lurve to argue with you and said dat u curang wit me..

im sure u're not...hahaha..i did that coz i miss you...

when u told me that u missed me, im happy :)

hehe...ucukk, we already 4months and 3 days la..sweet ;)

i hope this post xsampai ke telinga mama la..

haha, we're planning to have our vacation to pangkor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..

haha..wat a trip!!..for the first time, mama and abah bg!!..yeaay!!..

yg confirm green light pergi are ayuni, aida and me!!..hahaha..

sgt2 excited..everything dah plan!!..

just tunggu the day...hahaha...

mean time, nak spend time kat umah and lepaking puas2!!!!..

bcoz on 28th june 2010, trip to langkawi plak..

and going back to malacca on 2nd july 2010...

ermm..kejap je cuti!!!..ok la, janji cuti kan!?!..haha

chow!!

manje n D...

2 and half months...me n him so far...

quite lovely and steady...

really2 love him that i cant describe with words...

both of us went to genting to celebrate mama and abah's anniversary...

memorable weekend ever with him...

i've learned that our relationship are strong...both of us will survive this relationship...

but then, we've been tested with him had a chicken-pox on our way to malacca...

monday, which is yesterday, he go back to taiping, perak...

OMG!!..u can't imagine what happened to me!!..

im lost coz he will not be with me on my birthday which is this friday!!!..

i cant believe it!!..i really2 hope that he'll be here...

today, i've made a photo collage me and him's pix...

beautiful pix that i created only for us...i don't know what happened to me!!..

really damn miss him for 14 days!!!...

i cried in the middle of night...thought he'll leaving me..

it just that i feel lonely...i am...

without him in college really2 make me feel invisible...

whatever it is...i really2 hope that he get well soon and he'll be here in front of me a.s.a.p...

D, i really2 love you and please get well soon syg...

manje waiting you here...

trip to riau ;)

it'll be a rest moment for me...
need to go to tanjung pinang, riau, indonesia...
for a community service...
4days 3night...wat a great week for me...
and i really hope that it'll be a safest time to visit....
hopefully nothing happen when we did our program...aminnn...

mail and me take part...at first, i'm not in the mood to join the programme...
dunno y??..really2 damn lazy to pack my bags...hee...
but then, i have too...
can't wait to travel outside Malaysia with my ucuk :)
hehehe...

mail and me..quite okay...1month and a half...
ok la tuh...gaduh baik, gaduh baik...
sometimes im not in the mood to talk about it..
i can't stand if we had a fight...im the one who suffered it alone...
i love him...only if he knows about it...
im sure he did...

my college's life getting better with everyone...
they face the fact that i'm not single and try to move on their life...
hahhaha...hope u'll know what i'm talk about...
it's okay la...we can be friends....kan?..

neway, this week just like a small reunion for me...
we gathered back our classmate in standard 3 in subang...SK seafield...
abu zar, danial, intan, azureen, hakim etc....
miss them so much...everyone's growing up and i can't recognize them at all...
hello!!..what happen to me?!?!...
pressure for me to remember back those memories....
hopefully we can meet each other back and share our memories again...

i'm ready to start a new book soon...
next month would be my birthday!!!!..im 20!!!!..
OMG!!!..getting old and HOT like usual...hahaahha...
let's party!!!!...i want diz year birthday celebration's happening unusual way...
heeee...hope my ucuk will make a surprise for me :)

later on guys!!..
will update after i come back to Malaysia this Sunday....
pray for my safety k??..
luf ya ;)

two is better than one :)

hee..wat a happy ending for me..

feel the love around me..hopefully forever...

we officially declared on 30th January 2010...

between muhamad rashidi bin muhamad zainol and hazliza binti harun...

hee..at first we had so many problems and we try to solve it step by step...

and guess what!?.we did it..everything's back to normal...

i love him...thanks for every moment that we spend together...

thanks for make me happy again...

if i don't try, i won't happy like this...

i know what people think about us...but who's care?!..

as long as it didn't trap into your life...right!?..

whatever it takes..we'll try to be together...

and it's time for miracles...

i know it's time for us...

for how long it takes..we'll try...

ermm..that's all for me..

:)

pak MaiL..ermm..

2nd time secretly crush someone who i think it's impossible to be with him...

this time..he's accidentally close with me...i think we trust each other on keeping a secret...

but, like i said last month in my heart, i HATE to be man's best friend...it's enough for that moment, i said that because it's time for me to move on and find my love one...i need him to be with me..

but why him!?..and from his story i still believe we can't be together even though i always pray that i'm mistake about it...why i'm easily had a crush with a guy??..i need to know him..and sometimes i need him to know how i feel so that IF he wants to run away, he may run...i try to hide this feeling but somehow, it already shown up...i didn't ask this thing happen...why he didn't try to stop this?!..why he makes me feel special every time i met him?..i never had a conversation for 7 hours in the whole night!!!!..but he did it!!!!..but what happens if we can't be together??..is there any conversation between us?!?!..is hard for me if that happens!!..anyway, when i wrote this blog..he send me a good night's text...SEE!!.how can i handle it?..hope there will be a sunshine between us...i'll try my best and don't want to disappointed anymore...

what ever he is...i like the way he are!!!..as long as he is ... ....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tracks of my tears..

just for adam lambert himself...suddenly i love him more than everyone love him!!!..why??..hahaha..it's funny!!!..well, stop talking about lambert...hahaha...well, tomorrow i'll traveling to malacca!!..for a reason actually..i've to attend a camp in kulim, kedah...and guess what!?..i have no friends!!!..and i can't wait it comes to an end!!!..OMG!!.what is happening to me!?!?..i just want to go to genting and spend my time with my coolest friends ever!!..ayuni, aida, miexa and probably emma will join us trip to genting!!!..i just want to hang out and laugh with the girls!!!..enough sitting at home and watch the kids do everything!!!..i'm mess enough do nothing where i can do something fun!!!..if you get a message here, good!..my brain stuck somewhere and need a pump to throw all out the waste!!..fuhhh, it's long enough i keep this in my mind...huu, and hopefully my journey to kedah will rest my mind and i just think it's part of my holiday..don't want to think what will happen in kedah..i'll do nothing just relax...enough about that...next, it's about afiq!..hahaha..things go well with him...it takes a year to get him attention...suddenly this semester break make my holiday worth...he told me that he adore me and kinda had a crush on me!!..it's sweet..sometimes i wish he is my adam lambert but it's possible for him to be GAY!!!..hahaha..jux joke!..i just hope that things go well and i'm happy what i am doing now...noad, of course i miss him..he far far away from me...but he keep calls me when there is a game...good things la..at least he's not silent himself..than i'll be worrried!!...OMG!!..tomorrow is a tired day for me!!!..it's time for miracles and i'll write again for your entertainment!!!..( i knew it)

my adam!

suddenly i'm so obsessed with him!..

yes!.him my adam lambert!!!!..i know his gay..so what!?..he's sing like a real singer...

100% true about his voice...his hot!!..but one question pop out in my head..why his gay!?..

hahaha...hope that people will accept him the way his are...come on la..no body's perfect!!..

aiyaa..whatever happen to him during American Music Awards (AMA 2009) should be forget and move on...he tryin' to be a entertainer...

don't know why suddenly my heart beats fast when i see his cute face!!..with his black hair and nail done not forgetting his eyes!!..i adore him!!..OMGUCCI!!!..hahahha...

top this blog is his pix where every time i see it i can't blink my eyes!!

this is his video clip for his song, for your entertainment!!

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